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Because of you♥ [18 Sep 2005|12:27am] Dear Diary. So its been going alright lately.. ~Work is going good. I SWEAR I always get the customers that take 20 mins for a transaction haha I had one today that was using this card thing and it took half an hour for him to get through my line. I had to have 3 supervisors come over and help me. Yeah. It was not pretty lol Well...we got a new cart boy, John. Idk what to think of him right now lol And of course, theres Nicholas and Aaron. Both really nice. And then theres MANDIE..ahh...i freaking love her haha. And Ashemly and Brooke. Love those girls! ~School is going good. My interum thingy wasnt very good though lol I kinda got a D in pre calc. Its alright though, I'll get it up..hopefully haha. Other than that, I'm having a lot of fun. My classes are all pretty fun. Math, I have Eric, Anthony and Sam M. in there haha We tear it up. English, I got Katie, Kayla, Brooke, John, Cory, Nick, Nikki, Brandon, Aaron, Luke and some other ppl. ITS SO FUN! Drama is Drama haha Its a fun class. AHH I FREAKING LOVE SCIENCE! My two boys are in that class lol Same with Laura, Rinizay, Angela, Casey, CarolAnn and some other ppl lol American Gov is alright. I like it for the most part..I got all my gangster girls in there haha JAMIE!! DALLAS!! MARI!! CAROLANN!! SARAH!! CATHY!! haha Good times. Pre AP french is pretty kewl. I got CarolAnn Luke and Natalie..its fun!!<333 ~I love my friends!! Aww..things are going so well with them right now. I love them all dearly haha ASHLEY stop being so mean to me haha jk LOVE YOU GIRL!! Some of us are having boy issues, but we're working them out. Boys are dumb haha I lvoe my girls though. We havent had a girls night in a LONG TIME though. So we need to do that! ~Cheerleading is going good. For the most part, except the uniform thing. Secret Pals went really well haha I HAD SO MUCH FUN WITH IT!!<333 We lost the game last nyt..but thats ok. I love you boys..we'll get em next time!=] The girls crack me up so much! We all have so much fun out there on the feild. We tear it up haha GREAT BAND SONG<333 ~BOYS! uh. they make me mad haha Things in this department are fair lol I wish they were better, but what can you do. I think i could like some ppl lol I have a few little things for some ppl lol TWO MAINLY..but we wont go there right now haha Things are still confusing, but what can you do. ~So I think its time to move on from this one boy. Cuz hes just making me stressed out and he wont tell whats going on with himself. He keeps blowing me off as if I'm nothing and thats making me mad. So whatever..we can be friends..but dont tell my friends you want me. Cuz you wont even tell me... xoxo SaM 7 faded|whispers

[14 Sep 2005|08:09pm] Do you Remember.. <3 The day we met <3 The first time we kissed <3 How nervous I was, when i first met your parents <3 When your dog bit me <3 Our first date <3 When we raced to your car from the river <3 "I wanna take care of you" <3 "I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU THINK" <3 Fourth of July <3 "I love the way the fireworks light up your face" <3 Don't Cha <3 All the times riding in your car <3 Malibu's <3 Mardi Gras <3 "Hey thanks" <3 "Hey your welcome" <3 "Hope everything comes out alright" <3 Shopping together <3 Our first scary movie <3 Beach <3 Strawberry Syrup..lol <3..</3 Myspace Even if you dont remember..I sure do. I remember all the memories..all the laughs..and especially all the tears. I know things were messed up and still kinda are. But, I will never forget the time we spent together, because I loved every moment.. xoxo SaM 2 faded|whispers

[13 Sep 2005|09:08pm] Dear Diary. Sorry Its been so long since I've last updated. Lets Recap this whole month of skewl haha. School is going GREAT! I am having so much fun! My classes are pretty good and I have a lot of ppl I like in all my classes. Omgosh..its truly becoming one of the best year<333 I am soo excited to see how this year is going to go!! I'm not failing anything..but I AM having troubles in Pre Calc. Its all straight though. Cheerleading is going pretty good. We STILL dont have our freaking uniforms. Thats soo gay. I hate it haha I'm like..are you JOKING ME!!! Gosh..its like beyond retarted. haha I love my team members though! They are all soo much fun. haha They always make me laugh so much. My nicknames are Egg Roll and KD #3!!! Haha.. I love my pepper..Salt..Peprika..Soy Sauce..Chocolate..Vanilla and KD triplets haha The triplets are ME S'NISHA AND LENNI!! haha I'm also still doing youth cheer. We combined Junior and Senior division. We should kick butt haha! Friends are doing pretty good. I had one with a hard break up earlier this month. We've had a lot of drama lately..but its finally all over. I know I love them all dearly. I'm so sorry girls. I've also become close with a lot of different ppl too. Some ppl I just talked to last yr are now great friends of mine. I.E. MICHELLE..KARA..JAMIE..DALLAS..ERIC HUFFMAN..ANTHONY PALADINI..SAM M..and some other ppls. <33 you all!!! I should be getting my license Friday morning. We had some difficulites Monday morning and I couldnt get it then. Yeah. I was soo poed. We wont even talk about that haha So i'm gonna go car shopping this w/e. Hopefully I'll have a car then!! hehe YAY! I got a job @ target! I finally have a freaking job haha I've been working there for about a month..maybe haha I'm having soo much fun! I'm a cashier there. The ppl there are soo nice. The hours and work is really nice too. Its not too long and not too hard. The pay is awesome too. 7 dollars an hour hehe<333 I so dont even know whats going on with boys right now. I've had a lil bit of a crush on some ppl. And i have DEFINETLY thought some boys are cute lol There are soo hotties at Target where I work. And all that kinda stuff. Then there are some hotties at skewl..you know lol And there was this guy from a different skewl that I liked..but idk whats going on with him. He confused the hell outta me and idk if we're even freinds anymore. I havent talked to him in a WHILE! So..whatever..idk anymroe haha So theres this ONE certain guy..that i still am kinda hooked on, i guess lol I dont even know whats going on anymore. I thought i was kidding myself to even think we could ever be. But, then today, I got some news that it might happen. Which i'm not even sure is true. He could have just said it to say it. Boys are like that. They like to piss girls off. So right now. Idk whats goin on.   xoxo SaM     1 faded|whispers

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SummEr LoVe...HurTs.. [06 Aug 2005|08:17pm] [ mood | crappy ] A Broken heart..still beats.. Well..as you all can tell..Ryan and I broke up. Yeah. I would have updated last night, but it was a hard night. I really dk anymore. Things are so messed up and I'm more confused than ever. I feel like I dk whats going on with my feelings..or what I'm doing anymore. I woudl tell y'all why we broke up, but i'm still really confused about it. But, from the conversation we had last night, I think its because he doesnt like me anymore. Or, because I said I was thinking about breaking up with him, cuz of some stuff going on. So, lets start from the beginning. Wendsday, he forgot my birthday, which I really wasnt mad about..until some ppl started to egg on to me that I should be mad and that he wasnt worth it, and I got scared and confused. Then all the little things that had been making me mad, finally blew a lid. I felt frustrated and confused and like I didnt know what the heck to do anymore. I felt like I couldnt control my feelings, which scared me. Then, when i talked to him about it..he freaked out on me. He started saying that since I was talking about it and thinking about it, he should be too. Which completly took me off guard, then he said he didnt know what he felt anymore, and that he didnt love me anymore..which hurt more than anything. So, we got off the phone and i waited thursday for him to call..and he didnt. So, I still waited..Friday, he im'd me and said check myspace msgs. Well...i was unable to check them due to the site. So, i called n told him that i couldnt check my msgs and to call me back, so he just sent it to my IM. And thats when i knew, he was breaking up with me. The tears came first, but then the frustration came after. And soon, I was more angry than anyhting else. I wanted to hit something..I wanted to yell at him. He didnt answer when I called, which got me even more upset, there are two ppl in the relationship..you said what you needed to..now why cant I?? I was so frustrated. We ended up talking that night, he appologized and said that he felt bad for doing it over the internet. So, we talked for a bit and I tried to understand what was going on. Which, I'm still a lil confused. We still have the friendship issue to discuss..but havent yet..so I guess..we'll see how it goes.. ~Yeah. I'll always remember that night. SaM 3 faded|whispers

My BIRTHDAY! [03 Aug 2005|11:09am] [ mood | excited ]          I'm FINALLY             Sixteen!!               Yay..its My birfday Today!!!!!!!!! xoxo SaM 6 faded|whispers

SummEr FuN! [01 Aug 2005|12:10am] [ mood | tired ] Dear Diary, ~Thursday was pretty fun. I went to camp like usual lol I had a lot of fun, that dance was pretty kewlie lol I was like YAY hehe The girls were being really nice n stuff too..so thats always a plus haha Then i went to youth cheer after..gosh oh gosh..I DONT GET PAID FOR THIS haha..Those girls..they are beginning to drive me up a wall lol I'm like ARE YOU JOKING haha But, their comin together! ~Friday was the last day of camp..thats always sad!!! I was like aww..haha The girls got "The Talk" by Nancy though lol THAT WAS SOO FUNNY!! It was a great speech though..very moving. I love Nancy, shes awesome!!! Then i went to go get my physical lol Yeah. I got the speech there too lol My doctor cracks me up, hes really nice though. Then I went out to dinner with the family. ~Saturday was freaking awesome lol First, I went and dropped of Welcome Home cookies at Ryan's<333 Then I went to the commissary for groceries haha My dad me and tess were all goofing off and having fun. It was nice to spend some time with them lol Then we went SCHOOL CLOTHES SHOPPING!!! haha It was soo awesome!! I was so excited, I got some REALLY cute clothes. ~Today was a hectic day, not to mention NOT FUN AT ALL!!! Gosh..lol First, I had to do chores today and thats always..eh for me lol I wasnt having too much fun. Then things went sour with Ryan, yeah. I'll talk about that in the next paragraph. Then I was like kinda bored for the day. But then we went out and got movies and I dropped off Ash's present, so that made it better..i missed ashley!!! Ryan, So as you all know..Ryan was in Peurto Rico for a week. Which was fine, even though i missed him so much. Well, he didnt take his phoen with him, so I didnt get to talk to him while he was gone. NOW YOU GIRLS, should be able to relate to me here, I figured he would call when he got home to tell me he was alright or w/e, even if it was just a quick phone call. But, he didnt. So I called and he didnt answer. Till about 7, then we finally got a chance to talk. And by then, I was already frustrated. So, we kinda got into a lil argument. But, we worked it all out and we're ok now. Gosh..as much as I hate to fight with him, I love him so much. I just dont think he understands why i feel the way i do about stuff..which isnt his fault. He isnt me, so I should proly explain myself better sometimes. But, we're good now. We're going to be celebratin our one month here in about 5 days..so i am really excited!! hehe..but i cant tell y'all what i'm doing..cuz its a surprise lol ~I'll be SIXTEEN in 3 days!! Ah!! I am soooo freaking excited haha We're going out to dinner n stuff..i already had my big bash haah Dinner will be fun though..OH!! A fun fact, my dad n I share the same birthday hehe<333 xoxo SaM 2 faded|whispers

TheSe Are The DaYs I TreaSuRe! [27 Jul 2005|07:13pm] Dear Diary, Yeah..i guess a lot has been going on lol ~Saturday was FUN lol Not really..I had to say goodbye to my best friend and my babe lol I took Kayla to the airport at about 10ish..lol It was really sad..its hard for me to see ppl leave. I just dont like it lol I JUST DONT haha Well..anyways..we had some fun in the airport haha We'll awlays have our inside jokes lol So, after that, I had to go to Izzy's for practice for her sweet 15 party. That was fun, I GOT TO SEE CHELSEA lol I hadnt seen her in like FOREVER lol I think two weeks..its hard to go that long w/o your bffe haha ~Sunday, went over to chelseas for a BBQ thing haha IT WAS FUN! lol I got to see Danny n John Oates also. Haha. I also met his brother Ryan, hes freaking HALARIOUS!! He was cracking me up the whole time lol Hes really nice too. So I got to catch up with John and his summer lol I call him WHEATIES and BEACH BUM now..lol Hes spent like everyday at the beach..weirdo haha jk!!! but anyways..that was a good day!! ~All the fun started on Monday. haha. We started camp @ Freedom for cheer. It actually, went REALLY WELL!!! lol Everyone seems to be getting along great and the squad looks better than ever lol I AM REALLY EXCITED!!! I was like..yes haha Then, I went to go coach youth later that night. Gosh..i'm like on CHEER OVERLOAD haha I am trying to overwork myself lol I dont wanna see how i'm gonna b when skewl starts lol I am really excited tho lol ~Tuesday, was camp @ Freedom again. That was fun also. I got assigned Phone COORDINATED haha Same with Crystal Moyer!! lol Its gonna be so much fun, we were joking around about it n stuff haha I was having a lot of fun, that girl CRACKS ME UP!! haha I love her to death!! We learned a really freaking cute dance that day too lol I was like YAYNESS haha It was really cute. Then went to youth cheer after again..gosh..those girls!! lol Some of them really need attitude adjusments..like bad lol I WAS LIKE I DONT GET PAID FOR THIS!! lol ~Today was just camp. The girls were doing awesome today! I noticed how good our JV is!! Their like awesome lol I was like yay..hehe They were doing well. It was freakin hott today lol HOTTER THAN USUAL!! I was like..are you kidding lol No youth today, cuz the girls went to go pick up their uniform stuff..so I was like alright lol I am glad to get a break lol I need to do laundry n all this stuff lol ~I cant wait to hang out with my girls<33 lol I miss them so much!! I should be able to see all of them on Saturday tho..for Ash's party thing @ Jungle Village heheh SOO EXCITED!! It should be a lot of fun!! WHAT lol I am like freaking out for it haha I miss everyone..its been too long..lol ~Well..I miss Ryan so much!!! I hate when he leaves lol This is like the third time this summer..i think lol Idk..its way too many haha jk Its good that we spend time away from each other, that way we arent bored haha I do really miss him though, hes my babe for sure lol I love him so much..I cant even begin to explain it. I've fallen in love and its only been 2 months lol Idk though, theres something about him that absolutely amazes me lol Well..I cant wait till the 5th hehe..we're gonna have our one month..but i wont tell y'all what we're doing, cuz its a surprise!! I am soo excited hehe I MISS YOU BABY!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!! xoxo SaM 3 faded|whispers

[22 Jul 2005|02:40pm] [ mood | sleepy ] Dear Diary, Hmm..good week with Kayla!! ~Wendsday, was Funnn!! haha Went to cheer teaching and then went Ashley's later that night! omgosh..it was soo nice to see all those ppl I hadnt seen in a while! I love all those girls and of course, those silly boys haha It was freaking halarious!! Metro left and came on and off haha He came on his breaks from work lol good times! I also got see my baby..aww..hehe soo cute!! lol Then we watched some of Ashley's home videos OMGOSH!! haha That was freaking halarious!!! AWESOME TIMES!! ~Thursday, went down to the pool and saw Nick, Kayla, Annie and Will. lol I havent talked to them in like ..idk.. Forever!! haha It was nice to see them. Kayla was cracking me up haha WE HATE BOYS lol It was really funny. It was nice for Kayla C. to meet everyone haha Then went to cheer then went out to dinner haha That was a fun dinner. Kayla n I talked about boys and sweet things they do haha ~Friday, today is Kayla's last day. *tear* Its gonna be so hard to say bye to her tomorrow..i dont want her to go lol So we're pretty much hangin out just me n her and trying to make some great memories before she leaves haha Also, Ryan stopped by on his way to Wal Mart and said bye to me. Yeah..i'll explain more in the next paragraph haha ~Things with Ryan are GREAT!! He was being a butthead earlier today, but thats what we do. Be mean and then make up haha Thats how we do. He leaves for Peurto Rico tomorrow at 4 in the morning for a week lol I am gonna miss him so much! lol Its alright though, I like some time away..its always good for any relationship. Hes def my baby haha We've been doing so much better since fourth of july. I think it was a big realization for both of us and how much we do care for each other. So things are good!!! ~Cheerleading is going pretty good lol The girls are coming together more, thank gosh haha Their really cute though, I can tell some of them are trying really hard to do well. I really like teaching them. I cant wait to take them to competion lol ITs gonna be so much fun!! I cant wait for HS cheer to start up lol I want to get back into practice n stuff..hopefully we'll have more squad unity haha ~Kayla C. I am so glad you came down to see me! I missed you so much! I still live for our late night talks haah TILL FIVE IN THE MORNIGN!!! lol Girl, you have been there for me so much and you know I luv ya!! Thank you for always being there for me! You have no idea how much I appreciate all that you do for me!!! I LOVE YA GIRLIE!!!! xoxo SaM whispers

Its been FOREVER..haha [19 Jul 2005|02:23am] [ mood | tired ] Dear Diary, Yes..i know..a much needed update haha ~I am finally ungrounded haha I was grounded for about a week n a half. Pretty much the most boring part of summer right there haha I about died..i was like ITCHING to get out haha I was like..uhh haha ~Kayla C. got in on thursday! AHH i'm so freaking excited! Its been the shiznit since shes been here haha I missed her soo much! We've been spending all these nights talkin till about 4 in the morning haha Just catching up and filling each other in on the drama haha Shes been meeting some of my friends too haha She says we remind her of Laguna Beach haha HELL YEAH BABY lol Shes awesome!!! ~Friday, we went shopping with Ashemely haha I LOVE HER!!! Shes awesome!! We went down to Merritt Island..yes..we love to shop..its how we do haha I got a really cute outfit! I LOVE IT haha Kayla got some cute clothes too..gotta take back that east coast style haha Some good times laughing in the dressing rooms..trying to find some dresses. HAHA ~Sunday, we went to the movies with GREGORY!!! haha I LOVE HIM!! HES MY BUDDY lol We had a blast. We went n saw War of the Worlds..haha GOOD MOVIE! I jumped a couple of times haha Then while we were waiting for my rents..I got picked on haha They double teamed me..tear haha Then our attention shifted to these girls that wouldnt stop staring..yea..bugged me haha ~Went the pool today with KEVO!! haha That was awesome! Nicholas ditched me for his lover or whoever she is hah Its ok hun, i still have love for you..kinda haha jk I DO I DO!! lol I met Lee's sister today too..shes a sweetheart!!! I got soo tan haha I feel so bad..kayla got SOO RED!! Shes in pain!! I feel so awful!!! That Florida sun man!! ~Going to Ashley's on wensday to meet Ryan! Woo haha That should be a fun day!! Gonna hang out w/ whoever and whomever haha I'm gonna have to shower @ her house first though, cuz i'll have just finished with youth cheer haha I am so excited to hang out with everyone..we havent had a group gathering in a while!! haha ~Youth cheer is going AWESOME haha I am having a lot of fun with it lately! The girls are soo cute haha They all learn really fast too!! Their getting a lil frustrated with stunting, but i know we can do it! I get to make up the competition routine also! So i am like SUPER EXCITED ABOUT THAT!!! haha It should be a lot of fun!!! ~Things with Ryan are giong pretty good!! Aww..i love this boy haha We're doing soooo great!! I dont get to see him that much cuz of his license thing and cuz i was grounded, but we're keeping it together! I am soo unbelievably happy!! haha I was upset earlier today and he made me feel so much better hehe He should be at Ashley's on wensday too hehe So, we'll be able to hang out then too!! YAYNESS!!! xoxo SaM whispers

LoVe HuRts.. [06 Jul 2005|12:01pm] Dear Diary, Holly crap..SOO MUCH GOING ON!!! I know I havent updated since last week..so here we go lol ~Wendsday Ryan and me went SHOPPING!! haha It was soo much fun! We went to Target and the Avenue. lol Some good times. He helped me pick out my outfit for fourth of july, then I picked out his outfit for fourth of July. Aww..he hates jeans, but i made him get some lol Then i wanted him to get a button up, but he chose a pink polo instead..gosh..loser lol jk Then he got a pink hat, but I told him it was too much pink haha Then we played around in Target lol He makes me laugh so much... ~Saturday was COCOA HUNDAI!! haha That was soooo funny! We had to stand out on the intersections by Applebee's with signs..aww..good times! haha It was Chelsea, Lindsey, Allysa and me! It was a blast! I felt like a goober though, cuz Ryan wanted to know where I was and I wouldnt tell him. So he drove around all over looking for me. All to hold out a sign asking me to be his g/f..yea..i know..i'm a dork! lol Then I went over to Cathy's for her sweet 16. Yeah..let me just say that was the most drama filled day EVER!!! Gosh..it was freaking retarted..some ppl..need to stop with all this shit. And then i was yelled at for being a bitch..or w/e..but idk i dont wanna deal w/ it anymore! ~Sunday we went to Cocoa Hundai..AGAIN haha This day was funnier haha We ran over to Steak and Shake haha..it was freaking crazy..we were being a bunch of gurls haha Then..i felt bad..cuz Ryan was gonna ask me out agian and i wasnt there..tear lol Then I came home for a BBQ..aww..this little girl was here..she was sooo CUTE! I played cards w/ her and watched a movie!! ~Monday was FOURTH OF JULY!! Holla haha Well...lets just say..it started out good haha Ryan came and got me and we went to Laurie Wilson with everyone haha OMGOSH..i met laura's b/f BOB!!! Isnt that an awesome name haha So we all played around at the beach lol Then I went with Julia to get dressed. So we were all getting changed, getting all pretty or w/e lol Then ppl started to show up and DANG..my babe came in and I was like HOTTIE!!! haha Then we all went outside to eat or w/e lol HAHA..freaking we had the funniest conversation EVER!! We were talking about Bob and all his names or w/e lol Queefy..Dee Dee..Adidas lol You'd had to have been there to understand it all. Then Ryan and me went and talked on the hammok..but we'll talk about that later. So, the fireworks started to go off!! That was aweome..aww..he said the sweetest thing..i love watching the fireworks light up your face. Oh man..I hate misquitos I got bitten up to HIGH HEAVEN! I feel as if I have chicken pocks!!! uh..its totally gay!! ~Tuesday was pretty kewlie lol I went with Julia and Katie to the Avenue to see Bewitched and shop a little! haha THAT WAS AWESOME! I love those girls, they crack me up! We had a blast together, they were making me feel better due to some prior incidents or w/e haha Idk..anyways..so i got a poster too haha I was really excited!!! ~Oh lord..so he comes the longest paragraph of it all..lol Ryan! Alright..so we decided to back track a lil on our relationship cuz we realized we didnt know each other as good as we thought. So things were a little rocky, but ended up being ok. So, on monday, things were good..we were laughin having a good time. Then we went to sit on the hammock and talk..well..things were going great. I was falling in love with him all over agian and i was soo unbelievably happy. Then it got brought up that some girl was hitting on him when he went home to change for the party. And i asked if he liked her and he said he didnt know. So, the converstaion continued and he realized he didnt know what he wanted. He wasnt sure if he wanted me or what he wanted to do and all this stuff. So we talked for about an hour about this. Then..it led to tears from him and i'm sorry's getting thrown all over the place. I didnt know what to do and I didnt know what to say. I just wanted to make it as easy as i could..so I said we'll just be friedns and it will all be ok. So i walked him to his car and..he started to cry..and i was so numb. I wanted to cry with him but held it all in. I didnt know what to do, but walk away and then we kissed one last time and that killed me..But, walking away from him and having him not run after me..hurt worse. ~So then, tuesday he texted me and said I miss you and it hasnt even been a day. I had no clue what to say, so i said i miss you too. Then in the middle of the movies, he texted me this whole long thing about how much he loves me and misses me..and i just broke down. It was the hardest thing to think i let him go and then know he was still in my life. So, later that day, I called him and we talked. He said he was sorry, he talked to the other girl and told her he wanted me. He said he loves me and wanted to be with me and I told him alright. So, as of 07/05/05 We are a COUPLE! lol We've been talking since 05/30/05..SO I'm really HAPPY!!!! I love you baby, and I'm so glad we got through this together!! ~Also, I am grounded for a week..so I wont be able to talk to y'all on the phone or anythign like that. Dont ask why, cuz its dumb and I feel like a loser for getting in trouble for it lol Gosh..Ive been feeling like a loser for a lot stuff latley haha ~I am soo excited! I get to volunteer for the youth league cheerleaders! They are soo cute haha We go out every tues, wends, and thursday! Its so awesome! I went out yesterday and did it! They are absolutly precious! I cant wait to go back and do it again today!! ~I am soo excited! Kayla C. comes down the 13th from WA!!! HOLLA!! haha I cant wait to see her!! I miss you hunny! I am so excited that I get to see you! You chose a bad time though, all my friends are gonna be gone lol Same with my babe. GOSH WHORE! haha jk I am still really happy your coming..we'll go do some other stuff..liek SHOPPING haha xoxo SaM 1 faded|whispers

So MucH GoiNg On [28 Jun 2005|01:45pm] Dear Diary, Alright y'all..this is gonna be a long one haha ~Saturday was the I got Skillz Camp for cheer! Aww..it was so cute! I was in charge of the youngest group..lol..they were precious! There was a girl named Samantha there too haha We were S squared lol We were partners for the water balloon contest...it was so cute! haha Then I got to hang out w/ some girls I hadnt seen in a while! I talked with Lindsey alot haha That girl is so funny! Then I talked with Izzy..aww I LOVE HER! Then me n Chelsea had a good talk lol BFFE! ~Well Sunday, I went to Mikes Grad party haha Aww..it was so funny! We all talked about the past years and all the good times we've shared..tear lol I love Mike, hes awesome! He was def one of my first friends of Drama. I'm gonna miss him so much! haha A lot of stories got brought up for sure haah It was sooo funny! He can always make me laugh! I love ya babe! ~My sweet 16 party was yesterday!! What..it was FREAKING AWESOME!!! haha First everyone came over here and we did regular b-day stuff haha We watched a home video of me..oh lord haha..it was funny! Then my dad surprised me with LIMO's to take us to Orlando!! I was so freaking excited haha So, we went to the Groove and partied it up!! haha..omgohs..it was freaking SWEEEETTT!!! There were some Hott guys there too lol Everyone got kicked outta this one place to sit, cuz there was a couple like GETTING IT ON haha I was like..okayyy The dance floor was CraZy though haha We were all represting Rockledge!! Random guys kept coming up to all the girls haha Then this one guy I was dancing with was like rubbing his package all over me and i was like alright..i'm leaving haha Aww..but in the Limo..I cried haha Everyone went around and said something about me, like how we met and how much they care about me and stuff..and then I went around and did it for everyone..yea..it was sad haha I was like crying and everyone was like MAKE UP haha It was Great!!! It was an AWESOME party!!! ~So after my party..I had some girls sleepover! Ahh..it was freaking awesome haha We stayed up till about 630am haha It was insane!! I felt bad too..cuz all the girls had to be up at like 730 or 900ish haha I was like...awww..their soo cute though! I love my girls haha GOOD TIMES!!! We jsut sat up and talked for like ever haha Making jokes..laughing..these are the times I will always remember. *I'm gassy*Oreos*Get me Milk*Misquitos*New LovErs*Calling at 6am* I love you girls!! ~Kayla C. Hey hunny, Sorry I missed your call last night! I was at the groove and stuff. I still love you though! I promise! haha I am sooo excited that your coming down here..we're gonna have fun!! BEACH WHAT?!??! haha your awesome! I hope all is going well. I knwo you were going through a rough patch! But I will alwyas b here for you!! ~Ryan come homes today! Its not till midnight..but still haha He'll be home haha! I am soo freaking excited haha I really miss him. But I hope he had a blast at wrestling camp..I know how much he loves it!! Gosh..I cant wait to hang out with him. We're proly hanging out tomorrow..going shopping or something haha Cuz i have money and I'm ready to spend it HAHA! Things are going so great right now..we're not a couple yet, but we are dating. Things are going at a good pace right now.. I am really happy!! hehe My Bro comes home today too..so that should be fun haha xoxo SaM 3 faded|whispers

TheSe Are tHe Best DaYs Of OuR LIvES [24 Jun 2005|02:54pm] Dear Diary, Well..this week was pretty much just Ryan filled haha.. ~Monday was really nice. Ryan and I went out for Ice Cream and went to Rotary Park down by the river. It was really sweet. I had a lot of fun. We had a chance to talk alot lol It was nice to be able to get to know him better.  Hes such a sweet heart!!! ~Wendsday, we went to a movie and to dinner. We went and saw Mr. and Mrs. Smith haha It was really good. We started on opposite sides of the theatre, but then we sat together haha It was really funny. Then we went to this pizzaria in Cocoa Village. It was really cute. Then we walked around the little Cocoa Village park. Aww..we went back to where we first met haha It was reallly sweet. I had a really good time. ~Thursday we spent the day together. It was really nice. We had a lot of fun haha I went over to his house and we hung out. We watched Scary Movie 3 haha It was really funny. Then we played Video Games haha That was awesome! I killed him twice in halo 2, but he killed me like 11 times haha Then we played this racing game hehe. I won a couple of times. Then we ate pizza and watched Max X..that was pretty kewl haha After, we started to play cards haha I won like alot. And he beat me twice in Egyptian Rat Screw haha It was a lot of fun!!! ~YEAH..my party is on Monday! I am so freaking excited haha I cant wait!! Its gonna be so much fun!! Going to the Groove for a teen night..what..haha I cant wait to see all the people I havent seen all summer! I miss them so much!!! ~haha So the clinic camp thingy we teach is this saturday. It got rescheduled haha I'm really excited, it should be A LOT OF FUN! haha Hopefully it wont rain tomorrow either. Gosh..that would def. suck haha Then we got freedom at the end of July!!! Thats gonna be alot of fun too. ~Ryan left for camp at 230 this morning haha He called me during a resteraunt break though lol I miss him alot..but its good that we spend time apart as well. Too much togetherness can KILL a relationship haha I know how that goes. I'm gonna miss you babe! I hope you have a GrEaT Time!! Stay away from those cheerleaders haha I will see you when you get back hun!!*Hey Stranger*Hey, thanks!*Dont cha wish your g/f was hott like me* LoL!! Good TIMES!! xoxo SaM 2 faded|whispers

[19 Jun 2005|09:34pm] Dear Diary, ~Well Friday was a lot of fun. Ryan and I went on our first date! We went out to dinner at the Sunshine Cafe. It was really nice. We got a chance to talk alot and get to know each other more. I dont think i've laughed that much in a long time haha I seem to always be laughing when we hang out haha Then I got a chance to meet his parents. They are so nice. I really like them. We watched Big Fish, then Wedding Singer and some baseball. It was really nice. His dog wasnt too fond of me though lol ~Saturday, I went to a wedding thing, it was really cute! haha The garter thing was soo cute..but a little..kinky..haha I was like alright then. The bride and groom were so cute though! haha Then i came home and watched movies haha It was really nice to be able to just sit and watch movies haha ~Fathers day is today. It was really nice haha We went and saw Cinderella Man today..it was a really cute movie! haha It was a little bloody..but good lol I enjoyed it alot. Then we went to Unos' omgosh, that place is soo good. Now, i'm home talking to Ryan on the phone and hes making me update haha ~Kayla C...Girl I miss you so much!! You still gotta call me and tell me when your coming hoe haah I hope all is well for you. I know you've been going through a lot lately! You will awlays be my bffe though and i love you so much! I cant wait to see you again! Its gonna be soo pimp I LOVE YOU!! ~i miss my gurls!! aww..i havent seen y'all in like forever!! gosh..when are we gonna chill again haha I know my party/sleepover is coming up but still haha I miss my skanks haha HANNAH!! I LOVE YA!! Oh yeah, what the heck is going on for the fourth of july anyways haha I miss y'all and hope to see y'all soon!!! ~Things are going really well with Ryan. Hes such a complete sweetheart lol Not to mention hes always keeping me laughing..like everytime we hang out..thats all i do. And for some reason, i really like it alot haha We see eye to eye on a lot of things too which is something I really like! Its really nice to be able to agree on things haha But that never stops him from making fun of me haha But its still really cute haha We get along really well.. Its def the start of something good.. xoxo SaM 7 faded|whispers

GeT It PoPPiN [14 Jun 2005|09:48pm] Dear Diary, ~Well, went to Julia's yesterday!! Ahh...it was freaking awesome haha There were a bunch of us there. At first, it was just chilling and talking, but then..zach got the fireworks haha He went like firework CRAZY haha It was soo fun tho! Poor ashley, she was so scared..she had to go inside aww..i love ya babe haha So, then the music got turned on haha Then me hannah and julia started to bust it out haha It was so funny. Then i went and layed on a blanket with Ryan and we talked for a while. It was nice. After, we started to watch Freddy vs. Jason. Scary movies and me dont mix haha Ryan was like craddling me, i was so scared haha Then, Logan and Julia went and like shook the doors..yea..not funny haha I FREAKED OUT lol Then at 10:35ish haha Ryan took me home..aww..so cute haha ~Aww...i love my gurls so much! Y'all are so awesome! I cant even begin to explain it! Y'all have been there for me so much and I cant even begin to tell you how much I appreciate it!! Y'all are so freaking amazing!! I cant wait for our next SLEEPOVER! haha HOLLA haha Its gonna be so tight. I always have fun w/ y'all and can talk to y'all about anything! Thank you gurls for always being there and NeVer judgin me!! ~Well..Kayla C is supposed to come visit me, but idk whats going on with taht right now. You know I love ya gurlie haha You have been there for me since 6th grade! You are sincerely AWESOME! haha I cant wait to see you!! Hopefully you'll be able to make it for my bday. If not, its ok..we'll go out! lol ~Well, nothing is really going on with cheer lately. Right now, things keep getting cancelled..so idk anymore. I cant wait for camp though! Its gonna be so much fun! AHH haha I loved camp last yr, hopefully it will be just as fun this year. I hope i'm not as sore though lol i was like OMGOSH haha It was tight though haha My dad went and dropped off my money today too..so thats all taken care of. I also got my report card. 1 C 4 B's 1 A. I was pretty good with it! I thought i was gonna get a D in Math, and I didnt..so thats always good haha ~So, Ryan and I are officially dating now hehe I am really excited. He truly seems like a sweet guy. We're not rushing things for right now. We've been talking since about the end of May. So, things are going at a good pace right now lol I really like hangin out with him though. Hes soo much fun! haha He makes me laugh all the time haha So, things are going really well!!! xoxo SaM 5 faded|whispers

SummEr DaYS [12 Jun 2005|09:43pm] Dear Diary, Well I just kinda chilled out Thursday and Friday, but the w/e was pretty good!! ~Well Saturday, we had a BBQ, it was freaking awesome haha Danny, Chelsea n RyAn came over lol We chilled out watching movies and talking haha It was so much fun! Lots of laughs haha Danny adn Chelsea crack me up!!! LoL..Ryan is an awful driver haha jk He hates when i say that lol And when i say his car is CUTE haha So we watched Taxi, Son of the mask and some of the Forgotten haha No one would shut up during the Forgotten, so we really didnt watch a lot of it haha Then chelsea went and sat right in front of the TV cuz we wouldnt shut up haha Shes awesome!! I love her!!! ~So today, we went and saw the Longest Yard and went out for dinner cuz my bro's leaving for Japan tomorrow. The movie was freaking awesome! It was so funny! haha..me n my dad were freaking crackin up. If y'all havent seen taht movie, you NEED to go see it!! haha Gosh, i'm gonna miss my bro haha Never thought i'd say that, but i will!! ~So bonfire @ julias on monday!! Ah..so freaking excited haha Its gonna be so pimp!! haha!! I cant wait to hang out with all these ppl its gonna be pimp!! I hope i dont get eaten up by bugs haha ~So the carwash was cancelled. Haha..ANOTHER CANCELATION!! Cheer is going pretty well though. I cant wait for the year to start. I think our squad will look really good this year. However, we really need to work on unity!! It sux!! REALLY BAD!! ~So I officially like someone now lol Its weird, cuz we like each other, we just dk whats going on between us lol I guess we're "dalking" which is the middle between talking and dating haha Its weird, but I like it that way haha There really isnt any like BIG pressure or anything like that. So its all good that way. I'm having a lot of fun and enjoying where we are right now!! xoxo SaM 2 faded|whispers

WhAtS YOUr NaMe? [10 Jun 2005|04:43pm] 01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you. 02. I will then tell what reminds me of you. 03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be... 04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you. 05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you. 06. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you. 07. Put this in your journal. 4 faded|whispers

Hott SummEr DaYs [08 Jun 2005|07:44pm] Dear Diary, Today was a good day..long but good!! ~Well, went to the beach today! It was awesome haha There was like 11 or 12 of us there. We all had so much fun!! Haha..some of us however, almost drowned in the water! Haha..that was GREAT!! I love you gurls! Y'all are awesome! Then we went to tan and yea..lets just say..i got BURNT! uh, it hurts soo bad..i was like LOTION I NEED LOTION haha it was funny. Everyones poor little faces were all red haha I got some what of a tan though, SERIOUS tan lines haha It was a fun day tho haha We all kept trying to walk to the showers and the sand kept burning our feet, I was like running haha And then there was these ppl playin weird jamacian music, we were all like dancing around like crazy to it though haha ~After, some of us went to Malibu's! Haha..goood times. We all joke about the most RANDOM things haha Its pretty awesome though! Good dinner conversations, haha not really haha OMGOSH, then our waitress had the eyebrows of like death haha She really needed a wax. Amanda like pointed that out really bad haha Then she was like "I love my waitress" haha!! ~So yesterday, me n chelsea went out to get ads for cheer. Yea, it was def gay! I hate getting ads, they stress me out! Its the gayest way to fundraise! haha So we went around for like 2 hours, and uh..just not having fun!! I was like this is really GAY!! haha I was not having fun @ all. Then we went to DQ for ice cream haha Me n Icecream lately haha It was really fun though! ~I'm excited for our car wash on Saturday! Hopefully I wont get anymore burnt than I already am! Uh, it sux haha It should be fun though! Some ppl are gonna come visit me and get their car washed, cuz I'm making them haha Come out and visit!! haha Cheer is really starting to get to me though. There is NO UNITY haha It sux again haha Then with all this fundraising stuff haha We have to do Cocoa Hundai again haha thats gonna be soooo boring!! haha ~Boys are being really confusing lately haha Gosh..theres this guy, that idk...I kinda think I might like lol Idk, i'm all confused haha I mean, hes really nice and really cute, but I still dk him all that well. I want to get to know him more before I decide. But theres DEFINETLY something there haha. I still miss someone very much though. But, with our situation, theres nothing I can do. We agreed to do our own thing until we can be together. xoxo SaM 2 faded|whispers

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